HEY YOU

2009-04-19T06:52:00.001-07:00

NEW SKIN PEOPLE((:
more cheery((: yay!

2009-04-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

11 more days to syf

11 more days of intense practise
11 more days of the 2 songs
11 more days of BONDING

i cant believe how fast time can fly.. wl seems like only a short while ago we started playing these 2 songs. and now, less than 2 weeks to SYF. we've come a long way... THE FINAL LAP. WE CAN DO IT.

RECORD BREAKING TEAM

2009-04-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

MRI SCAN IS FRIGGING NOISY
yes it is.
anyone going for mri scan please bring a pair of ear pluggsss
((: results on tuesday. cross my heart its either
1. CAN OPERATE
2. PHYSIO WILL MAKE IT OKAY
and not
3. CANNOT OPERATE AND PHYSIO NO USE

yes((:
2/3... thats 66% okay, so yups, i'm going to look on the bright side
YAY. physio was also okayyy not too bad. no more tape on my ankle. haha
more comfortable now yoz

HSK exam today. 170 questions fried my brains. LOL
can you believe the last question ask right... then the ans is xi ying (attract)
Then my brains were so fried i forgot how to write ying
walao. and er duo (ear) for a moment i also forget how to write the duo
HAHA. brain shut down at the 100th question alrd.
*if i can pass, i'll xie tian xie di*

CATS musical was like damn FAB
i love that lady who sang the "memories"
haha((: MY FAVOURITE SONG SUMMORE CAN
her voice was like wah shiok... POWER
and that stylio cat person was damn cool too
the cast actually interacted with the audience... good cos people will be more alert
their props and lighting ahhh... no comments ((:
SUPER GOOD. go watch if possible ((:

okay shall end here (:

2009-04-14T04:58:00.001-07:00

I WENT FOR PHYSIO TODAY
which actually means i'm on my road to recovery
yay!
thanks everyone for being with me while i got over the initial shock and disbelief.
thanks everyone for helping me get over that denial

MRI scan on friday
then we'll see how bad my injury is and determine whether or not i need the surgery
follow up next tuesday with doctor
prior to that, physio session 2 on friday too...
COUNTDOWN TO BEING TIGGER STARTS NOW!

2009-04-08T04:03:00.001-07:00

jie said i have to blog more. OKAY here goes
hahaha
on the happy note: I'M IN TALENT DEVELOPMENT
something i never ever ever ever thought i'll be in
today was damn funny...
tried lit play in class. i never knew midsummer's night dream could be so laugh-fable
HAHAHAH.
can you believe it? i'm some fairy queen person LOL
other details... come watch urself on 8may ((:
anyways((: daddy complained that i everytime got last minute thing. not happy )):
sigh, i hope mummy will be happy though... with the TD thingo ((:

2009-03-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

i should start coming to terms with it

peeloon says its only 2 yrs, 2 yrs which i should spend trying to keep my interest burning and not give up, 2 yrs which i should concentrate on doing other things, 2 yrs which i should concentrate on my recovery.

joshua says i should get over darius because a man like him is not worth my love.

then again, can i do it? Holy shit saying is so easy.
doing it, however, a whole new different thing
2 yrs MC, cannot do anything. and then after 2 yrs, surgery
surgery then 6 weeks cast, 12 weeks crutches
2-3 months of physical therapy
whole recovery course takes 6 month

try seeing people running around and jumping here there everywhere
and YOU not being able to do either.
try doing that
try seeing your ex almost every week and have him treat you like a stranger
try being me

WHY IS LIFE SO FRIGGING UNFAIR

2009-03-18T01:48:00.000-07:00

i feel fat
how's that
i cant fit into my teeshirts anymore
because i'm FAT BIG BUSTY WHATEVER YOU WANNA CALL IT
i hate being that
i really really really do
its not going to help now that i cant do running/jogging/jumping
only swim
fat help it is

2009-03-08T01:12:00.001-08:00

I DUN WAN TO GO OAC
shit you

2009-03-05T04:58:00.000-08:00

wow
syf is on 30th april
shit shit shit shit
song is crappily not stuck in my head
failed chem failed eng. amazing right? i know
my grades are going DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN the frigging drain
shit HELP
and M_ T_ _ is NOT helping with the redo of this work and the redo of that work
AND NO CHANGE IN MARKS i'm frigging not a robot ass!
i've alrd gotten heaps of scoldings because of this
-.- what the-
and golf comp is in 2 weeks
i lost my touch
BESIDES vidhya is saying i'm not trusting her and shit etc
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!

on the other side, thanks for the prep talk M.S. (:

2009-02-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

what is wrong with me
bloody hell, i feel like a tap thats spoiled
cannot off

i cry at every single thing
THANK YOU VIDHYA FOR MENTIONING IT TO THE WHOLE WORLD
i really appreciate it, ALOT
you know, its nice to know that everyone thinks i'm a cry baby now
hmms i am so loving my new role: crybaby

its not that i frigging want to be right?
i juat cannot control it
at the slightest thing i cry
yes its stupid i know
my problems seem super small when compared to others

why do i seem to feel like i'm losing the plot over here?
where has all my friends gone?
phoebe? sarah? i hardly get to see you guys now a days
am i really that repelling?
my temper is shit nowadays
why why why why why?!
WHY

oh gosh, end this madness, make me sane
make me sane, ever again.

2009-02-14T03:19:00.000-08:00

i cant believe it
i cant believe it
I CANT BELIEVE IT

cedar fiesta is OVER.
one and a half month of crazy planning, crazy proposals, discussions and working, all over alrd
the crowd was good. i was so scared because its vday, no one wanna come. LEAVE YOUR MARK AT CEDAR, by 3N was a huge success, thank you everyone ((: i love you. the banner is really PREEETTY. ((: all your artistic sense, helping people to wash hands, collectiong money, mend stalls, all came to a huge good close. we've come a long way and are really bonded now... let it not stop at just this.

we made $533 people! $533!

haha.

D came today. i felt so happy to see him. and yet he acts like he dont know me. or is it just me? how would i know. A came too... with Corde. haha they were like PLAYING BRIDGE at the wooden benches. like WHO plays bridge at a funfair? i know, A and Corde and their friends. HAHAHAH.

2009-01-13T02:06:00.001-08:00

1k. i need 1k!
i need to save 1k for my TRIPZ...
scrimp, thrift, work.
1k i can do it!
1k into my pocket please!

2009-01-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

well done magnificent class of 2008
we're proud of you((:
haha. ave msg of 9.0. whoots
and congrats to senior jayu who broke record for CSP with an A1
YAY

guess what. only 4 people do not qualify for JC
and only 4 people fail hcl
wl.

stress on batch of 09 and batch of 10(us)
09 dont do well, 10 have to pull up
09 do well, 10 have to continue trend.
hehe oh wells((:

TMRS HALF DAY ANYWAY!
YAY YAY YAY

2009-01-11T03:59:00.001-08:00

I CAN GO TO MANCHESTER
I CAN GO ON THE LITERATURE TRIP!
WHOOOOOTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSS

2009-01-11T01:56:00.000-08:00

12th jan 2009
7th day of school
why does school alrd feel like its been going on forever?
tired tired so tired
blues:(

anyways, goodluck to D and all those receiving olevel results tmr
you'll do fine i believe ((:
smiles

2009-01-10T07:06:00.000-08:00

one step at a time
i dont wanna sink deep
i wanna spend my time FREE
i shall distance

how much do you know about me?

2009-01-08T02:46:00.000-08:00

damnit
here comes all the stress. gosh
the subjects are okayy... but kindof need much getting used to
ALOT ALOT OF DIFFERENCE OKAYY
like in art you're chucked one bloody picture and asked to DRAW immediately
and in bio you're given hw on first day of sth
and in ssgeog have to do DEBATE on just the 2nd day of lessons

oh wells
CEDAR FIESTA is coming up
anyone wanna come?!
haha its on valentines day yoz, bring ur gfs and ur bfs.
hahaha.
mad school. classes all have to submit proposal by next monday
and guess what, 3Neon hasnt decided on what stall we wanna operate yet.
sighhh... HOW

anyways... my new yr resolution:
i am going to be a better assistant monitress than i was a secretary. and i shall be NICE to everyone (esp even when i'm angry).

and and... I WANNA GO ON LIT TRIP!
its like to MANCHESTER and OXFORD and LONDON
10 days 10 days
but the cost a bomb with a big bombshell
anyone nice enough to sponser?
preety please...

2009-01-05T02:55:00.000-08:00

effing shit
you dint even have the courage to CALL ME and clean things up
and i feel such a loser
i cant even BRING MYSELF TO HATE YOU
i hate myself

shit to my feelings
shit to me
shit to YOU and your consequences

"i dint have the control over the consequences, lene"
no control YOURSELF
i still count the effing days
i still COUNT it
and all you can say is to ask me to LET GO

fish. i wanna hate you, and push you away
i wanna ask you to fish off
the words just wont come out when i see you and when i talk to you
the tears just threaten to spill over
and it all boils down to a crazy four letter word that makes you lose your sense of reality.

i'm sorry D. i know its not fair for you

2009-01-04T05:58:00.001-08:00

thanks for your present D.
i dint expect you to spend so much on me...
and i know for one that the present wasnt just off the shelf thingo... you went choosing the pendant and the chain. i love it. thanks((:

*******************************************************************************
you dunno how i felt when i saw you sitting there,
looking so happy with your girlfriend
my tears were just that little bit away from spilling out
i know its impossible, but you still appear in my dreams
what am i supposed to do?

2009-01-02T00:23:00.000-08:00

first day of school is fun and retarded
hahahhaa
tchrs are not bad actually. for a class that seems to have the most ROJAK pupils on earth. imagine a class with LIT pupils, ART pupils and even one sec4 retainee?
wl right? oh wells
form tchr doesnt seem half as bad. ms wong. she teaches DEAR 3N p.e too. and some ppl HCL. yeah me am one of them ((:

bio is seriously RETARDED. strict but RETARDED. i was trying damn hard to STIFFLE my laughter throughout mrs gay's lesson. on the down side, which teacher ever gives HW on first day of school? my ans is MRS GAY

i havent seen chem yet. Mr kang. sounds not too bad. thats what most people say. i sure hope its TRUE. and ssgeog. from kashmiira, mrs loy soounds scary. but what to do, cedar's ssgeog supposed to be GOOD. so i'm just going to cross my fingers and pray like MAD.

as for maths, i suppose its good news... Mr ang? apparently he's one of the best maths tchrs in cedar? like i know for one, last yr one of the common tests, he set it and only his class could answer. so means he must be good. right? right?

lit and down to sng again. no comments. first lesson and little red riding hood became little red walking vagina. no i'm not joking. dont laugh. i'm really serious. wanna know how? ask the man himself. oh wells, at least i managed to grapple a distinction under him. thank god lit lessons split with Mdm Audra. heard she's not bad. again, cross my fingers and pray like mad.

now for english. i suppose, its down to relying on myself? what to do? MISS SIEW.

art is obviously miss teh. going to start olevel syllabus alrd. madness. THANK GOD I"M NOT GOING TO BE OAL. else, its craziness for me. look: monday, thursday HANDBELLS. tuesday ART AND GOLF, wednesday ART PIANO TUITION. somehow by some crazy miracle friday is still free. for me to do what? REVISION. there's mid yrs this yr. dont ask me why. and for some reason crazy school going even crazier and now got 2 PRELIMS at sec4. mad.

someone pray for me. i'm serious. pray for me!

2008-12-31T18:36:00.000-08:00

back from taiwan
and it was FUN sia...
hahahah.
mel's retarded. i mean seriously

AND AND mighty fortress... well, all i can say, we tried our best
lol. shop shop shop shop
mel! now i got blisters on my feet!
hahahah
and and TAIWAN RICH PPL HOUSES ARE DAMN COOL!
omg everything is AUTOMATED. even got automatic doors sia
wl

hot springs is seriously WEIRD
i dunno lah
but i'm not going to do sth like that in the near future
hahahaha. ((:

anyway, one of the best hols and birthday i've had
thanks damien, mel and axils
also thanks to D. for understanding
i'm so sorry i couldnt celebrate ur birthday

2008-12-21T22:11:00.001-08:00

concert was a success
thanks Jie, yingsi and sarah
for coming ((:
MY STRENGTH haha

anyway. it was GOOD sia.
like no mistakes like that ((:
and MEL! SABRE DANCE WAS WELL COORDINATED
congrats
hahhah

on the down side,
i wish you both came, A and D,
you know who you are.

2008-12-20T06:43:00.000-08:00

jie, yingsi and sarah coming to watch tmr
i'm so touched.
i mean its like they are each paying $12
and i believe its worse for sarah...
i shall not mention why

thanks so much people
its going to mean alot to me
YOU ARE MY STRENGTH FOR TMR
so i believe I CAN DO IT

2008-12-19T19:50:00.000-08:00

sprained wrist. best. stupid F5 G5 shake, four in hand
tmr is concert. anyone wanna come?
tickets at $12. call me

songs are better. sabre dance "perfected". kindof anyway.
thank god
wish me luck for tmr

1 day to concert, 6 days to taiwan
my wrist had better be healed.
i hope

2008-12-18T21:46:00.000-08:00

fuck
taiwan is in 7 days time and the songs are still so wobbly
shit thats one week. one week to go
the mistakes i am making are horrendous.
and getting yelled yet, poked, pushed and scolded for the tiniest reasons
no matter how accidental the scoldings are is really putting me off, off, off
why on EARTH did i even say i wanna go taiwan

"put the bells back properly! PROPER PLACE"
"Ab ah! not A"
"wrong beat lah"

i know. i know. I KNOW
shit this. you stop stressing me and i'll stop stressing myself
shit. i need the strength.
Mighty Fortress. Sabre Dance. Zhen Ai. Tian Mi Mi. Rasa Sayang. Burong Kakak Tua. Carol of the Bells. Sabre Dance. Zhen Ai. Tian Mi Mi. Burong Kakak Tua. Mighty Fortress. Carol of the Bells. Rasa Sayang.
shit man. really shit
mighty fortress. sabre dance.
sabre dance. mighty fortress
these two songs are seriously... oh i dont know.

maybe this aint for me.
maybe i've spent 4 yrs trying to do sth that is not for me

thr breakdown last night
its like i really lost total control
the tears just kept flowing
the feeling of being... being inferior... it just overwhelmed me
thanks for the strength JIE.
((: for the 1hr 38mins and i dunno how many seconds

I WILL OVERCOME THIS BATTLE
(lord help me)

2008-12-13T20:19:00.000-08:00

i think i'm going mad
i look for you in the crowd
and my heart yearns for you
and yet when my eyes settle upon you
my gaze flickers and i want to hide
i want you to remember me
as the smiley radiant girl
not the broken ragged doll i am now

i want to be seen by you
be cuddled and comforted
and yet i do not want you to see
the state i am in
i want to preserve my pleasant image
in your mind.

afterall, tell me...
was the pain,
was the touch,
were the words,
all but a dream?

2008-12-11T05:34:00.002-08:00

quoted from mel:

If I were a boy,
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man,
I'd listen to her
Cuz I know how it hurts,
when you lose the one you wantedCause
he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy
You don't understand,
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her,
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy

you start to wonder, how true the first stanza is. and how uncertain the second one appears to be

2008-12-09T02:54:00.000-08:00

looking for you in the crowd
yearning heart and soul for you
i tried forgetting
i tried ignoring
when that failed, i tried facing up to things
to get rejected
i'm a broken soul
a broken piece of mirror
a broken piece of mirror,
unable to reflect anything but my torn feelings
broken
broken
walking broken

you do not know how i feel
i'm lost
give me some light

but yet, you are taken
i will always be second in your eyes
i will always be last in your mind
i will always be behind in your heart

2008-12-08T05:35:00.000-08:00

oh crap what the heck is with the minor major and diminish! AHHHH someone help me!
blur sia. hello i'm only grade4... zzz
oh wells

2008-12-08T05:30:00.000-08:00

i cant i cant i cant
you have stolen my heart
why do you have to go away?

do you realise that the more you withdraw from me
the more i cant let go?
i know i am being unfair to alot of people
but i really cant help it
i'm sorry

2008-11-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

CAMP ROCKED.
thank you charlie for all your care!
once charlie, always charlie
may we never forget this friendship made
I LOVE ALL OF YOU LOADS

and already missing you all

and so... one month. one month and i still cant forget
the pain is still there
going insane
have i made the right choice, am i ready to move on
going crazy
and with 31 more days, will i spend my next birthday still worrying
still thinking
still remembering?

will you believe if i say i still look for you in the crowd?

2008-11-23T00:14:00.001-08:00

yesterday was FUN
haha CHEE-WHOA-WAH

lol
comeon marlene dont be like this
forget abt it!
so this is what pain is like

2008-11-20T04:42:00.001-08:00

so really... the end of another yr
i feel old.
it seems just like yesterday it was MY psle results release
seems like yesterday we were rejoicing for being the BEST BATCH
and now. 2 yrs have gone by in a jiffy
you start to wonder. have you wasted your time away?

visited primary school website
i realised how much i couldnt let go of all those yrs
it just seems like i am still the one studying there.
its still us who is forming the graduation batch
its shocking to know... that after this batch of p6 leaves,
i go back and visit
no one will recognise me anymore

ex classmates, ex schoolmates, dispersed
when we graduated, we promised to keep in touch
and now... we barely recognise each other
i wonder, will we still say hello if we bump into each other on the streets
and so the harsh reality of overwhelms us once again
i say to you my friends, treasure your classmates, your schoolmates
dont wait and say... we'll keep in touch in secondary school
because its always easier to say then to do.

2 years 2 years.
comes another change
class, subjects, and for some, even schools
have we bonded close enough?
have we appreciated ourselves and those around us?
have we tried to put aside the differences and forgive our shortcomings?
so many qns left unanswered
and yet the most piercing of all
Will we regret our actions? and will we regret our decisions?

we face a new beginning again. seemingly alone
fearfully wondering
have we chosen the right path
thinking abt where it will take us
and if go wrong, will we be able to change the tide?
will we be able to make a change?
will we be able to stop ourselves before its too late?
more qns for us to find the ans

now i know why people say
the ignorance of childhood is bliss

2008-11-20T02:44:00.000-08:00

at a time like this, my heart should not be faltering
but
i dunno why... it just is
i find myself unable to put down the past
all of my past
when i thought i had gotten over one, the other redrew
then i found myself retracting so badly
lost
lost
lost in my own thoughts
reaching out for both again
and i wonder
much as you are part of my life
am i ready for you?

what a stupid qns to ask at this juncture
what a time to view of it this way
i tell myself snap out of it
we're reaching one month
counting from the time i started accepting
just one more week

but yet... can i?

2008-11-18T03:33:00.001-08:00

i THOUGHT i had gotten over you
and yet i still find myself craving for you
and missing you

marlene marlene
get over it
you are somebody else's now
_ _ _ _ _ _, I love you

2008-11-17T01:35:00.000-08:00

tmr's dragon boating.
shit. you know how many tchrs are gg? 8 leh! means 1 per boat
SHIAT!
and JIAHUI(instructor) same boat as me. WTH
SHIAT!
tmr is die day

2008-11-07T03:43:00.000-08:00

today was urgh
i screwed up rudolf and santa during the auditions. super sorry
totally screwed up
shit
rush to school. had campfire auditions. well... that wasnt too bad. at least it was hilarious
then to handbells. new song. el condor pasa
wl play dunno how many times alrd. bored me to death
the rythmn was *vomits*
play until even i also blur.
then siam to musical props. scared miss teh scold say i shrug off responsibility
painting the thingo halfway some tchr came in with 2 sec3s
say whole lot of crap then complain we slow, never do the scene 12 thingos etc.
bitched a hell lot say wanna take the cardboard and go. argue argue argue cos miss teh never give go ahead. stupid people say they'll take responsibility, if miss teh want the things back they will buy for us. continue crapping that even if they dont have our props, wont die, will go outside buy. budget so much then why in the first place still need us. damn it. president and vice-president of musical so big ah? pris and me, we i/c of props leh... everything in the art room all under our control sia.
so now? waiting for miss teh to come down upon us.
if you are smart, you wont irritate me anymore today.

2008-11-04T06:40:00.001-08:00

simply one line describes my feeling
i'm so tired i feel like collapsing and what you've done hurt me deeply

2008-11-03T02:38:00.000-08:00

so today marks the end of 2 and a half month long work.
i still remember Pris, Evelyn and i rushing the proposal right before english end of years.
Tears. Joy. Laughter. Friendship. i will never forget everything that this project brought for us. Thank you everyone.

So... the prize giving ceremony is the day after. i daresay that we stand a chance for top 3. but even if we dont get anything... it doesnt matter anymore. after all, its all the journey that matters most.

I love you guys loads. The poem below is dedicated to all 7 of you. Especially to Priscilla, my ever so supportive best friend, and Evelyn, who was so positive it was hard to be sad arnd her.

Brought together by fate
we encounted joys and hate.
casting them aside
we build friendship, bonafide

Together we embarked
on a journey entrusted
between the seven
we made things even

First to Ariel
who made dreams real
helping with words and language
she gave us a guage

Next to Lingyi
who never made anyone shen qi
helping with odd jobs
she enlightened our burdens and odds

Then to Songya
who agreed mostly with a "yah"
Supporting and helping all the way
she practically made our day

Following that is Siti
who with 3-D knowledge made things easy
though she was busy often
she always tried to come frequent

After that comes Evelyn
she was so nice to depend and lean
reminding us to stay optimistic
she helped us to remain less sadistic (HAHA PRIS REMEMBER?)

Lastly will be Priscilla
she made our day simpler
leading us the best she could
she made the best helped ever would

2008-11-01T01:56:00.000-07:00

It's just so obvious that you have been treating me so much differently ever since that day. Am i not good enough? Or is it because you are letting me go now you've had your way? Or is it really because you're sorry and you can't bring yourself to do that to a friend?

When you told me, it just smacked me down. All the way. I got over it with much effort. And as i was climbing up, i sort your support. I didn't need it that way. Only as friends. And yet, what happened to all your replies. You claim i am paranoid. What can i do? You just shattered my entire confidence in myself and everything i do. You helped me when i was down, but now you withdraw. The impact you made on me, was far far far worse then i was before. I am utterly a shack now. Totally broken into bits and pieces. Thank you

2008-10-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

Why aren't you replying me? Have i done anything wrong?

Lord what have i done to deserve this?

2008-10-29T03:04:00.000-07:00

so 2 bombshells were dropped on me today

you know... i sometimes wonder why am i doing all the shit for you when you frigging dont appreciate it at all. not a word of thank you. or good effort. just plain complains. its no wonder ppl go mad under you. we are HUMANS, not INSTRUMENTS. or is your puny brain too small to even understand that?

and i wonder. have i made the right decision. or not.

am i strong enough?

2008-10-24T02:24:00.000-07:00

so comes the end of another year

2/I oheight will be bonded forever. at least i know for one, no one will ever make me forget this fantanstic inspirational ignitive class of 2008. together with 231008, it will be carved deep into my heart

yesterday was such an emotional day. at the beginning we were all very hyper and trying to make the best use of all we could. cheers, songs, cheers, songs and many many more. its like the class enthusiasm and class spirit was just simply radiating out of us. then the songs grew increasingly sad. finally after all the cheers when we started to sing linger, everyone started crying. it totally reflected our feelings, that we did not want to leave and we wanted to linger there.

its just goodnight and not goodbye. how true can it get?

then tulasi started hugging me. then we both started crying. couldnt help it, the tears just kept flowing. even sarah tan cried. then hugged many many more ppl. no one practically wanted to leave. the best was, lenis came over and gave me a letter. thanks lenis.

i cant believe 2 years could fly past so easily. i cant believe we took forgranted we had lots more time. and now. we remember and in those memories we will find our strength

"we were strangers, starting out on a journey,
never dreaming, what we had to go through
now here we stand, unafraid of the future,
at the beginning with you... "

so comes the end of another year
so marks the start of a new beginning

2008-10-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

i am not angry

i am just disappointed

you know how irritating it is to keep trying to get you to hurry up and move?

having to keep catching up with people?

i mean i know you are interested but hello? we aint there alone now

we have a group to ans to!

and next! i cannot breathe and you asking me to go into a crazy room with cramped up spaces?

nevermind

its okay

i know you are mad with me as well

disappointing. really

2008-10-13T04:56:00.000-07:00

wah so many things happen... now i dunno where to start. hahaha maybe i shall just start with results. its going to be a long post so people, please bear with me!

first and foremost the results... this is just the End Of Years. i am not going to reveal the overall yah.
English: 77.5% (A1)
Chinese: 62.4% (B4)
Maths: 77.5% (A1)
Science: 70% (A2)
Geog: 64% (B4)
History: 82% (A1)
Literature: 78% (A1)
so its YAY YAY and more YAY. its quite quite quite nice! exp maybe for geog but who cares! and guess what i TOP FOR ENGLISH. and for lit. i think. mrs lam gave me a huge shock this morning when she suddenly tell me.

okok moveon moveon. SO MISS CHNG ALLOWS ME TO GO FOR COALS. yay yay yay i love my group like super alot. CHARLIE CHARLIE I LOVE YOU! the camp is like kindof strict must great instructors and so on and so forth. but the group people is like super super super nice.

and guess what today i found out... i am still in syf. i am so very very happy. but what the heck. make me worry worry worry worry until wanna die then tell me i still in syf. but who cares at least i am still in syf! THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING. haha.

okok i tried to summarise everything for the sake of you guys reading. haha okay more details next time. IF YOU WANT. tag if you do, then i promise you i will post more abt it!

2008-10-08T05:18:00.001-07:00

hey people
do me a favour... imagine this

student nominated for Cedar Outdoor Adventure Leadership Camp
student went through everything she could to get the form filled up
student beg with parents
student postpone many things for camp
student submit form on time
teacher says okay and promises to submit

AND THEN on the day of the briefing
student find out that her name not in grouping list
student ask teacher in charge of camp why
teacher in charge of camp says cca teacher did not submit form

*RUDE SHOCK*

student finds teacher
teacher tells student instructor not happy student will be missing prac
teacher agrees with instructor, so
teacher never submit form

sounds like a unreasonable story?
then imagine no more
because it REALLY HAPPENED

student put in so much effort
teacher just not happy
teacher makes decision for student
teacher never tell student

this is called
teacher no respect for student
teacher NO CARE student

2008-10-08T01:23:00.000-07:00

today was a good and bad day
goodnews?
1. miss teh was impressed with out proposals
2. WE GOT IN FOR LIVING ARRRT COMPETITION!

and bad news?
those who knows... they know
i mean
JUST WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO MAKE A F DECISION FOR ME?!
its my life get your f nose out of it
just because INSTRUCTOR not happy
AM I SUPPOSED TO BEND TO HER EVERY WHIM AND FANCY?!
huh?! what about my own personal development!
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I WANTED THIS
I PRACTICALLY BEGGED FOR IT
FOR MY PARENTS TO SIGN MY FORM
and you DARE to not submit it
YOU DARE TO DO IT AND YOU DARE NOT TELL US
YOU MADE US FIND OUT OURSELVES AT THE BLOODY BRIEFING
YOU MADE US LOSE FACE
sorry this is NOT for the good of everyone
THIS IS JUST SOME BLOODY COWARDLY ACT
this is crap
i refuse
to DROP EVERYTHING FOR A STUPID SITUATION THAT I MAY NOT EVEN BE IN
to MOULD MY LIFE AROUND THIS
this does NOT make up my life
bloody hell I HAVE OTHER THINGS THAT MATTERS TO ME ALSO
THIS DOES NOT MEAN I DO NOT HAVE 100% COMMITMENT OKAY

and you know what?!
I QUIT!

2008-10-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

frigging hell
so am i playing or am i not?!

rah... school tmr
shit shit shit shit shit
what if we get back our papers?! i am going to dieeee!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

someone save me... now

2008-10-01T02:42:00.001-07:00

slave drivers
on the day we dont have to go to school
1pm to 6pm
best

2008-09-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

geog was fine. thank god. i was beginning to think the teachers wanna kill us haha. level descriptor kindof sucked though. anyway i hate level descriptors ((: okay enough about exams. there's only 1 paper left on friday... maths. i think i studied like shit for this yr's exam. whatever the result, its MY RESULT NOW. and i dont care dont care dont care what issit. cos i have freaking done my best! i only feel i have let myself down for science. i studied the hardest for it and yet it still turns out to be my worse done paper. sigh. NO MORE THINKING OF SAD STUFF GIRL! SNAP OUT OF IT

its amazing how 2 years can pass so quickly. i am going to miss 2i. will you believe it? i bet i will miss those people that dont like me as well. how our class would cheer during jogging at the old campus. and because mus and sportsrep wernt there all the time, phoebe and i would be the one leading the class. and then we will cheer and cheer and cheer. AND the class would always not cheer in the beginning then scream our hearts out later. oh and how some people in our class would all of a sudden burst out in laughter (lee) and make the entire class laugh together. oh those were the days... those were the days... i cannot believe few more days and then... we are free from sec2 life. no more together as a class. no more together

the best of friends must part. i know for sure. or almost for sure. kash tulasi and i wont be together anymore. they are going trip science and i am not. sarah and phoebe? maybe? there's always a chance. no body knows. treasure your classmates, treasure your friends. wanping told me, margret told me, even milissa told me. and guess what i took it all forgranted. that i would never miss my class. the pangs of it all is coming. its nearing. we have bonded close together we did not even know.

2i 2i wo ai ni!

30 september 08

2008-09-29T20:57:00.001-07:00

dang lit poem is AMBIGUITY
wth

2008-09-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

freak
today's science was like SHIAT
i couldnt do half the paper!
and i did until i cried
best
i had to go and brain blank at SECTION A
means my whole paper is totally gone
and will someone just lessen my headache and tell me what is the correct ans for section c qns 3?
thanks

literature... much better.
thank you whoever who set that paper
xie xie from the bottom of my heart
mocking bird qns rocks.
abt discrimination!
heng ah
i could barely understand the stupid corridor
((: poetry was slightly bad
dunno if the poem is positive/negative
got ppl tell me is the father very love the child
bloody hell
i put that the father is a freaking abuser!
oh shit shit shit
but then again,
many people put the same as me...
anyways, gtg now... there's geog tmr and i need ta mugggg

7 papers, 5 down, 2 to go

29 september 08

2008-09-27T02:17:00.000-07:00

nice
friday night and i was alone
parents? 1 at work and 1 at F1
here i am waiting for you to come home. and there you are complaining the moment you step into the house about how ur company is working you like a slave
oh well you could have easily said that ur daughter is waitng for you at home
but did you?
NO
and your excuse for that?
mummy and daddy earn money then can bring you on holidays
to earn money we must work hard.
i am no idiot yes i know you need to work for money
BUT I DONT NEED THE HOLIDAYS IF THIS IS WHAT IT NEEDS
frigging hell
i had an exam and i so frigging wanted to share with you
and i waited. yes i waited
and then you came home. 1st thing you did: tv
do you even know you have a daughter?
here she is putting on a smile asking you how was ur day and you ONLY KNOW HOW TO COMPLAIN
do you think abt how her exam went?
did you realise it was a frigging hard paper for her?
but oh wells PARENTS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT AND WE?
WE ARE FOREVER WRONG

27 september 08

2008-09-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

today's history was kena sai
absolutely shitz
goodness
write write write until arm almost drop off.
pity whoever's gonna mark my paper. hope you can decipher what i am writing
haha. i think its gonna be a wonder if can get anyweh near a b3 sia...
now i wonder how i actually got a 85% for this last yr...

haha. only consolation that i have? i managed to finish the bloody hell paper. stupid stupid flu and fever. thanks to god it went down this morning else my mum wont even let me go 10m near the school. weh. so in other words, i recovered for exam only. cos now my nose is like stuffed up and blocked. record break today... i logged in at 07.28.24... 24seconds and 28 minutes past 7am. my latest time so far. medicine and antibiotics made me sweat sweat sweat like crazy. in room with fan on at full blast plus wind blowing in like siao from outside still sweat until whole face wet and got water drip down the side. my shirt was practically drenched. bleahs.

okayy... 3 papers down, 4 more to go.
~~English~~, ~~Chinese~~, ~~History~~, Science, Literature, Geography, Maths

26 september 08

2008-09-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

god help me

what is my cause
what is to be my future
should i or should i not
or should i just simply forget

god save me
my future my life
and i dunno what i want

2008-09-12T03:32:00.001-07:00

darius is just a friend dude. from church. seeing me with him after school does not mean we are having bgr can? i just went for lunch with him and he helped me with my work.

surely its not immoral

2008-09-04T20:28:00.000-07:00

OH GOODNESS!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

i did it i got a score of 49! my lowest so far!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

only one sad part
my division had super pro ppl
there were like 6 ppl better then me.
if i was in the other division, i would be 2nd!!!

BUT WHO CARES.
HURRAY!

2008-09-01T19:39:00.000-07:00

alone.... alone....
life gets boring you know?
everyday wake up breakfast nothing to do
same cycle
Clarence is studying for prelims
and he's so far away
Milissa's got family... family more important anyway

and my own family?
insults and goodness knows whatelse
i know i am not up to scratch lah okay?
cousin who is taking PSLE this yr alrd going to NUS high
uncle saying that my hair sth wrong and announcing to the whole family
THANKS LAH
mum asking me to do things... then when i start doing, scold and beat me
then do herself
in the first place why you ask me to do?!
say i am not studying. i alrd show you study plan lah!
you whole day not at home
HOW THE HELL ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO KNOW IF I AM STUDYING OR NOT?!
then at night when i start to relax
scold nag scold nag scold nag

when i thought i had someone to turn to
that someone said
i want to spend time with my family
alone...alone...again
i am not blaming you
just that.......

maybe mum was right... i am always the only one who
1.has problem with friends
2.has problem with relationships
3.has problem getting along with other people
4.has problem with CCA
5.cant get anything right
6.always the one doing the crappiest job
7.always the one who cant control her feelings

yes i know... i am stupid

2008-08-27T02:33:00.001-07:00

Hey peeps! you may not see me arnd that much for the next month
i am starting CRAZY studying from today onwards.
UNTIL AFTER THOSE HORRENDOUS AND MUCH HATED EXAMS
oh well its part of our life. what to do?
if i want to get good grades, all i can do is to study.
so seeya arnd
AND, you had better start studying too!

2008-08-21T05:07:00.000-07:00

damn it. i hate you all and your contridictory ways
driving me up the wall
no wonder everyone wants to quit

and best, theres nothing left for me to join
bloody hell i have to stick to this
THANKS ALOT
maybe i should book a bed in IMH now. yeah i should
and at the same time my coffin too

2008-08-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

25 post anniversary. only thing its not gonna to be a rather happy one
well i will try to make this un-emo, but HARD LAH

damn it being sick sucks.
why on earth did i have to inherit my mum and dad's LOW BLOOD PRESSURE
how retarded can this get? fainting after morning assembly. OH GOODNESS
doctor says: you faint cos you got Low Blood Pressure and then when you get up a little too fast, the blood all rush down to your legs and then the blood pressure crash.
chimology. but still. you get the idea what happened to me.

think i am going crazyy. sometimes want to cry and want to laugh. siao. like NOW lah. half of me want to feel sad, the other half want to laugh. really dunno what to do. zzzzzzzzz

14th August 2008

2008-08-05T07:56:00.001-07:00

my life is like hay-wire these days.
like wth
even just now dad suddenly started shouting at me. right after my training.
he even yelled at me cos sarah tan asked me about lit stuff on the phone
and mum keep harping on the same same thing.
and i am like bombarded like crazy with many things.
i think i am going crazy

i know there's like friends with me.
sarah, kash, phoebe, alex, milissa, clarence

still... sarah, kash and phoebe... they have their own issues too right?

and alex is having her final year at poly now... exams are coming... i can hardly call her up and go "hi alex i am vexed today, can we talk?"

same for milissa... she's like my elder sister. but still? she's got her own friends, like ying si, and her own troubles... for one i know she is super stressed up about her olevels.

clarence? his issues are heavy enough for him to bear. am i supposed to burden him somemore?

5 August 2008

zzzz... thanks mel

2008-08-04T05:34:00.000-07:00

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
to crap what is meant to be crapped

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Sms like crazy and forget to set the alarm

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
its an issue of almost 10++ years... dont ask me now

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
RELAXED. so that i wont be stress (like duh!)

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
my english poor lah wah lau... what the heck is an introvert/extrovert

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
depends on who

7. Do you trust easily?
again, depends on who

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
My Lord and My God

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yeah, many

10. When’s the last time you had fun?
cant rmb...

11. Is being tagged fun?
OH YES I LOVE IT (yeah right. thanks mel... alot)

12. How do you see yourself?
going crazy

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
the person whom i am most important to

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
I love her and she rocks. but sadly, she loves to dig out stuff from me that i dont wanna tell

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
LIKE I SAID ITS A MATTER OF 10++ MORE YEARS

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
we'll see when the time comes okay?

17. What’s better, to give or to receive?
Er...

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
see when the time comes

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
abort (although its not correct in my religion)

20. What are you waiting for right now?
To be sec3 with wanted subject com. exams to be over... all the normal stufff...

I will tag Alexandra, Sarah Tan, Nicea

2008-08-01T18:34:00.000-07:00

hello people sorry long time never post....
just moved hse and very busy recently, thats why couldnt use com for so long.
haha

SINGBELLZ FEST '08 was a damn success lah.
rocks rocks rocks.
i am like really glad to see the MOB growing stronger and stronger by the day.
((: the local group concert was damn good.
(sad you missed it mr sng. NOT I SAD LAH, WAH LAU SARAH TAN)
festival ensemble i think i kindof screwed. GRRR. i was damn damn damn nervous lah pls?
wah piang who wouldnt be with current conductor, ex-conductor, primary school juniors and goodness knows who else there?
but anyway just glad that it went so well ((:
i love you guys loads. ALEX, thanks for taking care of me the entire saturday!
and and MEL! remember dont tell others abt you-know-who.
okok shall upload the pictures now...

alex

mel and a very retarded looking me

this is KIM

BONDING TIME!

the entire group. with the cedarians

okay i am really tired now. shall post about new hse another time...

2 August 08

2008-07-11T06:11:00.000-07:00

ohmigosh yesterday's class bonding was damn funny lah.
esp the "who stole the cookie from the cookie jar"
i think i laugh until my stomach pain.

modification 1: "so-and-so stole the cookie from the cookie jar"
"Who, me?"
"yes you"
"could be"

*laugh laugh laugh*

modification 2: "so-and-so stole the cookie from the cookie jar"
"maybe"
"yes you"
"really?"

*laughs somemore*

super retarded. today had swimming again. damn tiring. omg i think my hands abt to break off. the stupid swimming in pjs gave me friction burns on BOTH my arms. hurts like shitzz. ahhhh.
shannon's birthday. went to give her her present. she like got SUPER alot of presents lah omg. then leaders invest. got some retarded "channel news cedar" thingy. then they interviewed this boy from Victoria school about whether girls or boys make a better leader. then he was like "as a gentlement from victoria school......" all the cedarians mimed vomiting. even the tchrs at the back all like laughing. wth. then got 2 hwachong ppl kena interview also. say dunno what girls nambi-pambi all these. everyone in the hall "BOO" haha. kash look lost on stage. aiya her signature look lah.

then after school... home to do lit props with phoebe and sarah. did the stupid tree. HARD WORK OKAY?! we finished it alrd. quick thank us, the other grp members. we did until 6 plus then phoebe and sarah went home. then i continued doing until 8 plus. and if U ALL COMPLAIN THAT ITS SHORT I AM GOING TO SMACK U UPSIDE DOWN. i know its short but HECK lah. not easy to make okay?!

k shall end here. damn tired alrd. bye

11 July 08

2008-07-09T00:28:00.000-07:00

oh gawd. today's chinese test and english test SUCKED shit.

wth i think i failed chinese. no wait i failed alrd. how to not fail when dont understand half of the dumb paper?!

wth
wth
wth

english wasnt much better. stupid topics they gave. dunno what person u admire and some happiness topic. sigh. flunk flunk flunk.

9 July 08

2008-07-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

bloody hell so even you think i cant make it in life... what kindof parent are you

today was youth day
erm lets see... went for MOB this morning. i think i really screwed. played like shitz
like wth... i cant study i cant play handbells i cant play golf properly. yeah i deserve to be called lousy. what shitzz.

at least lunch with shannon was better. went for lunch, crapped alot, took neoprints. crapping helps me to forget things. Thanks SHANNON, my lovely xiaomei... maybe i should just live in a world of crap. then i can forget everything. ok enough of my troubles. erm... shall try update my photos now.

haha LOVES
SISTAS
gimme one more huggg pls
lovelies
lets spastic tgt
LOL?!

7 July 08

2008-07-04T03:06:00.000-07:00

today was express yourself day. i think if got any outsider walk into cedar will get a big shock. 吓到半死. lets see... got ppl dressing up as witches, as er pirates and all sorts of stuff.
erm even got one class become "slumber party". LOL lah.

then then the tchrs had to be dragged on stage to do catwalk. FUNNY like crap.

miss chin was wearing her sec sch uni-- nanyang girls.

then miss thang wearing cedar one.

then the male tchrs all wore some school uni. but all i cannot differentiate. HAHA. i think mr sng one was dunman. dunno lah. heck care. then some tchr whom i dunno what name did some "act cool" thing. then mr lim did a "dont care" attitude. then mr sng, mr ang and this NIE tchr did some like "paigia" look. like bad boy like that. yah imagine mr sng bad boy... give us dao face summore.... oh oh. and miss thang and miss chin did "BIMBOTIC" like purposely walk all bimbotic-ly and then hitch skirt up.

i laugh until my teeth almost drop. oh i got a picture with sarah and mr sng... wait i upload. its taken using sarah's handphone. and the lighting was KENA SAI. so i tried editing it. and well sarah: this is the best i can do! deepen the contrast so that the features more blur and the light from behind less bright... haha

2008-06-27T01:16:00.000-07:00

ohmigosh today was swimming.
and like what? i havent swum like PROPERLY for errr 4 yrs? i mean like leisurely slow slow one have lah, but with timing one dont have.
so today the stupid dumb birdbrain coach ask us to swim 4 laps for warm up.
go there, come back, go there, come back.
i though he SIAO lah. wah piang. so i swim swim swim. then finish the four laps alrd right, wait for the rest to come back. i though we gonna like tread water or sth alrd. then he corrected our swimming stroke, then make us swim one more lap. then still not enuff, must swim 2 laps with timing.

*tulasi kicked me in my face b4 just as we started. heng ah if not i dieeee. let me rest 2 more mins, but my gums bleed*

yah so then my first time timing NOT TOO BAD. cos i behind everyone mah, though i very slow, chiong like siao. then then come back, must go AGAIN(2 laps) with timing. wtf. so went there come back. super uper tired. then coach say our legs not kicking enough, so must swim again, but this time cannot keep using hand, must keep kicking. so we swam 4 laps like that. PHEW almost dieded. haha. then FINALLY coach had enough of us swimming so we did tread water. 1 min with both hands up (cos its the GOLD module) then 2 mins normal, then 1 more min with both hand up. tiring sia. my legs like duan diao alrd.

then coach debrief say that we all the GOLD module ppl swim not fast enough must swim faster if not the test will die. then he also tell us we must swim 20 laps in 45 mins. SIAO-NESS and then 100m with PJs on in 3 mins. what the--- then must go buy PJ, the synthetic material type. where to go and find?!?! i dunno how many yrs never see that type of PJs liao leh! wah piang eh. then must long sleve summore. RAHHHH.

ok shall stop here. hand tired, shoulder pain, backache, leg very suan. all cos of swimming. sigh.

27 June 08

2008-06-25T20:48:00.000-07:00

LIFE SHUCKS
reallyyy
what the crap
i am so gonna fail my lit~~
SERIOUSLY
i hate my new lit tchr. (sorry shannon i know you love her)
I JUST DO.
RAHHHHHHS

2008-06-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

NEW TIMETABLE IS OUT!!!
ppl who want go take from cedar lms
rahs there's SWIMMING for pe. what the toot. SWIMMING. exactly what i have been looking forward to: make a fool out of myself in front of my friends. bleahs. i swim like shit what the hell.
but anyways lit tchr now is miss siew. hmms not too bad. i was SO BLOODY WORRIED IT WILL BE "little miss U.S. POLITICS" or rather "old miss U.S. POLITICS". haha. dunno who ask me. on msn or sth. not the tag board. heh
someone told me maths tchr also gonna change. funny leh the timetable never put another name. maybe after sch reopen then decide ba... dunno. and I HOPE CHINESE TCHR NOT GONNA CHANGE... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
cross my heart and hope to die. dun change chinese tchr. mdm goh rawks. dont change dont change dont change!

20 June 08

2008-06-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

OH GOD i still have:
Science midyr'05 SECTION C
chinese article review

and all that equals to DIEEEEEE

2008-06-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

god i am missing clarence
its like there's no one on the phone to talk to
no one to sms to
I MISS HIM!
but i know he is needed somewhere else

2008-06-16T20:28:00.000-07:00

Nicea asked me to do this quiz. so here goes:

What do you think an ideal best friend should be like?
Fun, crazy and nice...
If you had a dream to come true, what would it be?
I want a sibling >.<
Whose butt would like to kick the most?
Alvin, for not coming yesterday. (nono just joking)
What would you do with a billion dollars?
no idea
What is your ideal lover like?
Caring and idk... er handsome?
Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone (if he/she is worth loving)
How long will you wait for someone you really love?
Long enough
Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
WWJD oh eight! and 16/07 group4 outing!
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Wish for him to be happy and love him from afar
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who will you pick?
er never had e situation, so dunno
What type of people do you hate?
ppl who spread groundless rumours (e.g. nicea you know who)
Who do you want most now?
CLARENCE!
What do you want to be in your next life?
Me
Something to describe you?
er i think you better ask my friends. {:
You can have one more wish to come true, what is it?
dunno
What are you afraid to lose now?
Love
What do you lack now?
dunno
How to spend 200 bucks?
Neoprintssss... with shannon nicea kash phoebe and sarah.
What are your requirement(s) for your other half?
anything. god will provide
Do you cherish every friendship?
YES DUH
Do you believe in god?
i am catholic so what do you think?
Do you find it a must to have a BF?
have then have donthave then donthave lorh
What do you want your friends to be?
Friends
What are your hobbies/hobby?
? golf?
Whats your ambition?
biochemist
What do you want yourself to be?
er
Whats your favourite drink?
anything
Is there anything that made you unhappy recently?
WWJD ended so fast
Do you believe in eternal love?
Yeshaah!
Other 8 to do the quiz:
shannon, sarah, phoebe, clarence, amanda tan, alvin, charlene, darius

2008-06-16T20:12:00.000-07:00

oh gee. yesterday ROCKED like shit.
sad you couldnt come, amanda and marie.
the LOVELY charlene told me to meet her in the library at 10.30am
then in the end you know what time she came?!
11.30. smart lah. amanda and i waited dunno how long for you. heh
then we study study study until rachel came. then amanda had to go her cuz hse. so she left.
then rachel kept bugging us say that she very hungry want to go eat.
so after that char and me and rachel went to mos to eat,
with a HEATED ARGUMENT before that. of cos it was between char and rachel, does anyone still have to guess? haha. then when we eating halfway christian and nicea came.
then char and rachel disappeared somewhere. dunno where they went. heh. then christian nicea and i we went up to the cinema to buy tickets. OMG lah the queue was like 123876543234 ppl long. then julian came while we were queueing up. then after we bought the tickets, darius turned up. without his girlfriend. heh he said she was coming. so we all went in first leaving darius outside waiting for his girlfriend. ((:

the movie--the happening, was DAMN SCARY. omg really lah. nicea and i we were like squeezing each other's hands like shit. okay fine. more like me. i was squeezing her hand like crap. heh now you know why i never watch horror movies. but on the whole i think the movie was okay lah. but a bit crap. heh.

then after movie we went walking around a while, then finally settles down at food court. then nicea and char was crapping away about st nicks ppl. then after that we had ANOTHER heated argument on where to go and eat. finally settles on yoshinoya. then we went there eat alrd talk talk talk talk until 8... hehe. group4 rocks

i havent done all my hw. shit. still got
- 2 chinese comprehension
- chinese article review
- english article review
- science mid yr section B and C
- science end yr section B and C
die

17 June 08

2008-06-14T05:04:00.000-07:00

had handbells workshop with Kevin Ko today, with a few other MOB members. er lets see, total got 10 so er: Mel, Alex, Pearlin, Yiangshan, Ximin, Roland, Pingyi, Kim, Damien and me... yeah. its advanced workshop so, yuppies, all the new techniques. damn enriching
OMG i finally mastered my four-in-hand. the one you have to hold four bells, 2 in each hand and then its all in diff directions so you can ring diff notes. haha.
and and the best part. anybody ever heard of six-in-hand?!?! its like four in hand exp in each hand you now hold 3 bells. damn cool lah.
and I KNOW HOW TO PLAY IT!!!
wooohoooo.
i'm gonna get my certificate tmr and it's gonna say that i participated in the HANDBELLS ADVENCED WORKSHOP WITH KEVIN KO.
haha looks like my 95 bucks dint go wasted. (yeah it cost 95 bucks)

14 June 08

2008-06-13T02:49:00.001-07:00

oh yeah oh yeah
i finished my english compre, english summary, the 3 chinese enjoyedu compre and chinese letter writing.

so now it only leaves me with:
2 chinese workbook exercise
1 chinese article review
1 english article review
2 science papers
1 maths worksheet
geog workbook
geog ppt

YAY! shall go and chiong maths worksheet now. seeya ppl

13 June 08

2008-06-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

GOD i cut my fringe! MYSELF
and i am so loving my new fringe.
smiles smiles smiles ((:
photobucket is taking a seriously long time to upload
OH BOY HURRY UP
oh forget it

13 June 08

2008-06-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

omg i just realised. i still have a pile of homework left
lets see...i have done:
6 maths papers
chinese summary
3 chinese enjoyedu cloze passage
literature ppt

and that leaves me with:
1 maths worksheet
2 science papers
english compre
english summary
english article review
geog workbook
geog ppt
chinese letter writing
3 chinese workbook exercise
chinese article review
3 chinese enjoyedu compre

OMG. i swear i shall complete my chinese letter writing, english compre and english summary tmr. and if i can do it, my maths worksheet also. RAHHH.

12 June 08

2008-06-11T21:34:00.000-07:00

i found a picture of my mummy's ex bf
*gasps*
and he ~~looks like a perfect toot~~
its the truth lah.

12 June 08

2008-06-11T04:50:00.000-07:00

brought Joshua out today. OMG he is damn fun lah
i spent all my mac coupons alrd. on his macdonald's meal.
took money from grandma for lunch.
I shouldnt have bought my lunch anyway. he left so much behind i couldnt finish. haha
lets see. he left 1/2 a burger, 3/4 pack of fries, 5/6 drinks behind. wow right?
haha
a 3 yr old boy is not easy to take care. lol
i managed to nick some money from grandma to buy my sandals. and my hair clip.
haha not so bad lah.
i 4got to bring out $$ then i borrowed form her
then now i want to return she dont allow. oh wells.

11 June 08

2008-06-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

Dont ask me why
i just felt like posting again
haha. now into MORE DETAIL of each person in the group.

Nicea:
OMG you rock. you rock my world woman. love you many many. i think we bonded like hell tgt. HAHA. we shall all keep the second day lunch an inside joke together. REALLY dint expect 2 be same group as you. STAY COOL i tell you.

Rachel:
YOU and CHARLENE ah... scandalous lah. poke here poke ther poke everywhere. ahaha. bonded closer to you. oh no i dont wanna think how cat class is gonna be like with u scandalous pair. haha

Marie:
haha CUTE lah you. *pinches your cheeks* dont think you are going to get off. i am going to come after you and pinch your cheeks in school. DONT RUN!

Amanda:
YOU ROCK MY SOCKS MAN! haha. you are some friend. haha awesome-ness to be in the same grp as you. seeya aound.

Christian:
thanks for the drinks at every meal, nice person.

Julian:
sunshine kim *ting* omg you damn enthu lah! sad only last day... haha CONTINUE to rock on okays? thanks for the FUZZIES and sorry for not writing one to you... :(

Jerome:
yo boy! why so stone one you? next time enthu a bit leh! like talking to rock leh. but anyway... nice knowing youuu...

CHARLENE:
YOU ROCK AND I LOVE YOU MANY MANY. haha thanks for making my camp DAMN FUN. shall seeya again when class resumes. i think we bonded much closer alrd.

Darius:
you are a damn damn damn nice guy. and OMG how you do split one? so damn straight! wah piang eh. haha. you really are lame. dont get offended yeah?

Alvin:
haha you almost blasted my eardrums inside out. NO VOICE STILL CAN SHOUT. pro lah you. haha you really damn enthu sia, SUPER HYPER ~~and damn cute~~ strike that out. haha. go take lozenges. cure your bad throat. haha. seeya arnd.

10 June 08

2008-06-10T01:03:00.000-07:00

Shannon asked me to do this. so here goes:

1. what is the most impt thing in your life?
GOD, FRIENDS, FAMILY
2. when was the last time you bought sth with your own money?
sorry i got short term memo lost
3. where do you intend to get married?
i am only 13 now, still long way to go.
4. how old do you think you will be permanantly owned by ur love?
no idea...
5. are you in love?
yeap happily attached
6. where was the last restaurant you had dinner in?
er some restaurant in china
7. name the last book you bought
shopaholic and baby
8. you prefer ur mother or ur father?
no idea
9. name a person you really want to meet in real life
er?
10. Christina or Brittney?
christina
11. do you even do ur own laundry?
erm thats why there's sth called washing machine
12. the most exciting place you want to go
canada
13. hugs or kisses?
both. sorry i am greedy
14. point our 5 things abt the person who tagged u
retarded, friendly, crazy, lovely, er nice
15. 8 things i am passionate abt
handbells, golf, friends, clarence, going crazy, chatting, talking, reading
16. 8 things i say often
bleah, huh, omg, what the heck, oh boy, er..., lame, diao.
17. 8 books i read recently
shopaholic and baby, this must be love, match me if you can, size doesnt matter, cant rmb
18. 8 music i love
jiekou, yuan lai ai qing na me shang, si ben dao yue qiu, empty, jenny, flipside, at the beginning, before he cheats
19. 8 things i learnt last yr
er...
20. 8 ppl to tag
Clarence, Sarah Tan, Phoebe, Kash, anyone interested

10 June 08

2008-06-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

hello people i am back.
church camp ROCKED.bigtime
and oh i love my facils. CHARLENE ALVIN DARIUS
omg they rock.
and i swear charlene got more retarded over the 2 weeks that i didnt see her.
alvin is damn hyper. SUPER hyper. sometimes TOO HYPER ~~and he is damn cute~~
darius is nice. and well, i can only think of one word to discribe him lah. LAME

DAY ONE, 7 JUNE
omg woke up like what time? 7? and i slpt at 12 the night before.
at least it was a good 7 hrs of sleep.
the whole of day one was on one topic: sexuality
like what the hell how many times have i heard this talk alrd.
Nicea you are damn lucky to miss this i tell you.
we had aunty... er aunty... shit i forgot her name. starts with d.
OH aunty deborah! yah then she was telling us about the progress of intimacy which will lead up to finally ahem. yeah and if you were there i think you could see everyone trying not to giggle. lol.
lunch was fab. super duper uper fab. damn nice lah! or maybe i was just HUNGRY.
after lunch was addiction and temptation talk by aunty cat. but in the end also lead back to the topic of sexuality (AHEM). dunno what pregnancy and er abortion and pre-marital sex or sth like that. then we had the ppl from the RTC. no wait ppl who alrd was released from RTC. RTC is reformative training centre. part of prison. haha. the sharing was damn damn damn enriching lah. very touching also. erm after that was let me think. games i think. wait YAH games. sorry lah i have short term memory lost. haha erm games was kindof okay. but the first was lame. the calling out of animal sounds that one. LAME omg no other word to discribe. haha the others were not too bad. very fun. the ones we all had to squeeze onto the chair and move arnd that one was very scary. i was like so scared will fall. bathtime. nicea and i we CHIONG like crazy then managed to be the first few in the toilet. we both finished bathing damn fast lah. really bath like mad ppl like that. was 3rd and 4th to finish bathing. haha. then at night was campfire. it was damn fun. NOTE ALVIN, CAMPFIRE WAS FUN! especially the cheer battle. i think i almost lost my voice. lol. after campfire was rosary. that time alrd damn tired. was trying like hell not to fall asleep. and after the rosary. was there anymore activities? no i doubt so. yah only can rmb that lights out was at 11.30pm. and i couldnt sleep until like 12? was smsing under the covers. we had matresses then had to put the sleeping bag over the matress and sleep. and the aircon was COLD lah. er yah so back to lights out. so yah i slept at 12plus. i think.

DAY TWO, 8 JUNE
got slapped awake by Nicea at 6.30 sharp. haha. breakfast was well. kindof suckish. you know we had to make a sandwich and then swap with someone else. so kindof erm not nice. haha. yah then we had a session early in the morning. cannot rmb what. i think it was the one on "who is that man, jesus"... not sure sorry lah was like half asleep?then we had conversational prayer. omg daniel that was damn nice lah. really really very enriching. and marie: "i want to grow taller" haha. damn funny. sorry, group 4's inside joke. yah the after that was lets see. oh mass. mass was okay. not too bad. heh. exp for the fact i was almost falling asleep during homily. shhhh. haha. sorry darius if i knocked into you or sth.
after lunch we had Father Luke to come talk to us about reconciliation and some covenant thingy. heh. that was not too bad i think. abit towards the boring side. but what to do, still must listen cos its FATHER talking, not the facils. bleah.
after the reconciliation stuff was relating to parents. by CHARLENE and some uncle whom i cannot rmb what his name is. that was damn good lah. omg its like damn enriching. CHARLENE i love you. haha. shall not mention anything here. its private and confidental. heh. but really it was like very very true. (somehow i cannot communicate with my parents too. like CHARLENE) station games was fun. omg very very fun. exp the flour one. we had to use our mouths to "flour" an ice-cream stick. damn disgusting. double yucks. haha. the hoolahoop one was damn scary. had to carry 5 ppl through the hoop. and the hoop was VERY high. wah lao when i carried through the hoop that time, it was VERY scary lah. and damn funny also. when it was rachel's turn, she kept screaming like siao. she was like "dont touch my butt dont touch my butt!" damn damn damn hysterically funny. i was molested too. by julian, alvin , nicea, rachel and amanda. haha. julian dropped me. didn't you? thank GOD alvin was strong enough to support me. sorry lah peeps. i know i damn heavy.
haha. then after that was er BATHTIME oh yah. nicea and i we managed to CHIONG upstairs again and be the first few to bathe. lucky. haha. at night was pray over. very enriching lah. alot of ppl cry like shit. yah la me also lah. when father started praying over me right, i suddenly started trembling like no body's business. then when he finished, i start crying and crying and crying. for i dunno what reason. like cannot control my tears like that. heh. the sharing session after that was good. thanks alvin charlene and darius. then we had lights out at 11pm. nicea and i cannot sleep. we went to grotto with 2 ppl from logistics to pray. then we started chatting after we finished saying the rosary. and then one of them went to steal abit of food for us from the facils who were in the canteen. then at 12.15, we kena chase back to sleep by the facils. stupid thing to do cos i still couldnt sleep until like er 2 plus? then 3plus woke up again. then slpt abit then 5 plus again wake up. haha.

DAY THREE, 9 JUNE
oh we had a few more sessions when we woke up. EARLY IN THE MORNING we had to clear the toilet. before breakfast. wah lao emily and i go and unclog a toilet that was CLOGGED WITH SHIT okay?! then after that still ask us to eat roti prata. at least i managed to stuff it down my throat. then we had erm a session about discipileship. it was okay lah. then mass cleanup. haha. had to clean the boys toilet. at least it was half cleaned alrd. by the boys themselves.LOL
and finally we had the last session of the day.
accepting challenges... we had to build a protection for an egg. then the egg should not break when it is dropped from 2.5m... haha no groups succeeded. how to succeed when we only got 20 straws and 30cm of masking tape? our group not bad lah at least only got one crack. HEH.
we were second for the sector. hehe
then after that we had prize giving then break camp. group 4 never win anything, but heck lah. what really matters is that we have bonded together well. (:

okay shall end here. my fingers are tired from typing. haha.

10 June 08